I realize as I travel from here to beyond to back again, I have forgotten a few things. A few quirks that went unnoticed before and are now glaringly obvious. A few discussions that should have been have, didn't happen, and now I am stuck. I would like a few things in life. Sleep to come easy. Questions to be asked and answered. Interruptions to be squashed. I want things to be simple. I want to know that when I am tired I will close my eyes and go to sleep. I want to know that when I ask a question or ask someone else a question it will be answered and finalized. I want to know that my life, my speech, and the things I want to learn, won't be interrupted by outside influences.
It isn't to much to ask is it? To have a life worth living.
One thing not missing is ADVENTURE! I have driven across these United States and I have seen things that people only dream of. Animals nursing their young. The sunrise through the trees and the sunset over the ocean. I have witnessed the destruction of abandonment and the beauty of decay. People have spoken to me in a New England accent, a Midwest accent, a southern accent, and everything you could think of in between.
I have cried on freeways, and I have laughed on highways.
I have gotten lost and I have been found.
There are things missing, people, pets, and I feel very alone at times, but I'm getting there. I'm falling into the life I think I want to have. Tonight though, tonight, I wanted to pass on the feelings, the fortunes, the feverish thoughts. I wanted everyone to stop, think a moment and consider, are you living a life worth living? If someone asks you would you say, "Yes, this is where I want to be," or would you think about dreams long gone or forgotten.
My brain is too full. Tonight I hope to dream about life. Tomorrow, well, tomorrow I hope to dream about escaping from the grave.